|Tuesday, October 18th, 2005|
|Monday, October 17th, 2005|
|LIfe is shit-Dead Milkmen
Ahh ever have that day when everything that can be negative happens to you, well instead of a day its been a month. I haven't typed on my blog for several months haven't felt the need to. I was also in a relationship and didn't feel the need to come onto aol or yahoo and talk or bitch that shit doesn't excite me anymore. But i need to rant today, express my emotions which have been pretty blank and dead for the past month.Here's the beginning of my rant: My gram-ma's dying of some stomach shit, my older brother Adam had something wrong with his heart and almost died two weeks ago. That was great then my girlfriend the only girl I ever loved and didn't pump and dump,(which a majority of my friends would agree with that prior point) moved some guy in with her the day after our eleven month anniversary which is a classy move all in itself. Then she called three days after that and said she wanted me back and like the sucker I am I went back because we could work this out. WRONG, Well what the hell was I thinking, two days later she is cheating on me again with a different guy. SO I quit talking to her and she calls and says she misses me and loves me so I call back and the big man she is dating wants to fight me all tough like his balls are the size of king kong. I asked him after he passed his insults into my ear and got rid of his manly bravado, why is she calling me and telling me she loves me and misses me, and if he was I wouldn't he call to see what the hell is going on. So he got pissed and hung up oh well... After that lovely conversation I went to go to walmart and blockbuster, driving up 356 near Stanly's bakery a truck was in front of me and stopped past a right hand turn and decided to turn real quick without a turn signal. Bammmmmmmmm Car wreck so I pull to into the road he turned into and the mother fucker sped up and drove away. Brent Wilson got hit and runned, fucking kids probably in there parents car and had no respect to see if I could of been dying in my car. Cops came and said they were in the wrong and they would send some officers to go look for the blue extended cab truck no word yet, assholes. So I am also jobless anybody know anyplace that is hiring and can tell me please do so in other words i am out peace Current Mood: pissed off
|Tuesday, July 5th, 2005|
|Wednesday, October 27th, 2004|
Fuck it today is the day I withdrawl from college,
fuck it all. peace
|Monday, October 25th, 2004|
|Fucking political parties
I am sick of all things political, now don't take it as I want to piss on the flag after I burned it. It is just a big business now, when our forefathers started this grand country there were no political parties no thin red line everyone pranced around afraid to cross like a dodge ball game with foul words and slander being thrown by both sides. There was people saying I want to be president, why because there is fucked up shit in our nation that I believed needs fixed and there wasnt some fuckers in the shadows with billions of dollars lining their pocket used to push one party ahead of another. It was just one guy who said fuck that man this shit is not right our people should not have to be ruled like that let's break free from this tyranny of britain and make our own rules our own new beginning. Wow how politics have changed from time long ago. Now it is all money a fucking commercial every 30 seconds saying how godly this party is or how much of a donkey raper the other political party is, fuck that I am sure that a majority of people can smell a douch-bag without 800 fucking commercials, flyers, or posters telling me to see their opinion of who the douche is. I can smell the fucker that is bottom line. Current Mood: pissed off
|Tuesday, October 19th, 2004|
|last stop till arkansas
I have a new invention it will be an ear contreceptives and you would wear them whenever you wanted to seperate the persons bullshitted endless rambling from the two or three decent things you want to hear from them. It could work when your trying to get laid and you don't want to hear all the girls shit after to when some rico suave new political mastermind is talking shit. Buddy if I wanted to hear idiotic and flawed lectures on inacurracy on both canidates and who would run the country better I would give you a fucking talkshow. Like in a good friend of mines journal simply stating (insert your canidates name here( is a good guy or is a douche bag who sodimizes children does not work for me I want actually answers not some idiots color commentary on the way they swing this isnt fucking basketball I dont need this shit fucker. Also id use my new ear contraceptives to ween out a girls nagging after or before your trying to get in her pants. I am sorry baby do you see my dick in ya, yes you do now shut the fuck up. I am not fucking you becuase I want to hear your personal drama and fucked up life I am fucking you becuase I am drunk and horny, after words go make me a fucking sandwich and bring me some fucking gatorade stupid cunt. Now not to sound sexist but girls can use the ear contraceptives also becuase who gives a fuck what anyone truly says half the time, I know alot of people could give two shits and mark my name down in that list.
On another note thank you fellow rats for all the hard alcohol and putting up with my ass at eat n park. I cant believe i fell down stumbling out of the island like an ass fucking big shoe and it's affect aftrer drinking. I managed to dose in and out of some sort of foggy perception then back into a drunken stuper last night. It was one of the few good drunks I had. Man chicken soup tastes like ass when you are shitfaced. I would like to say thanks To Willy P and Gonzo last night for managing my drunken ass at the bar and after. On that note slap me in my face next time when that nagging bitch talks to be at the bar.
Now to go take a shower then finish my english assignment. Peace.
Ahhh how The alcohol loves me like no other though, everything is better staring into a bottle sometimes. Current Mood: aggravated
|Monday, October 18th, 2004|
|Happy birthday to me
Happy bithday to me 24 and nothing to show for it. That kicks fucking ass like a two legged goat trying to walk. Whatever I have no idea what the fuck I am saying. Ahh tomorrow will be fun wait no it won't a birthday is just another day. But im out time to watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind and pass out goodnight all. Current Mood: bitchy
|Wednesday, October 13th, 2004|
Do not say I Talk to you shit. You read my live journal then tell my friend that you talked to me ,LIAR. I am so tired of people trying to start shit with other first party members because they are jealous that there friendship with the other is not as valid or easy going. I am sorry that you find the need to start shit with other people.Because your relationship with this said individual is fucked up, but don't drag my ass into this one I am so tired of being the easy one to blame for your troubles. so leave me alone I don't talk appreciate to you so do me a favor and do the same leave me be. Don't drag me down into your drama I do not appriciate it. And just because you read my live journal and the brief paragraph in there do not say I talked to you, you know the truth and that you crossed the line and made up this lie.
Bye Current Mood: pissed off
|Tuesday, October 12th, 2004|
time flies by after.....................You drink 3 Arrogant Bastard Ales, and take a couple of shots. Went to the Island last night met up with the boys Will and King. Drank till closing time and met this crazy fucker, Patrick Fitzpatrick who I am convinced was in love with King or was gonna throw down at him. He apparently likes to hold hands when you try to shake his hand creepy man. But he did not throw down with any of us so it was ok.
King, Will, and I walked home and sat on a nasty couch in the middle of the sidewalk for nothing except pure amusement. Then Will called me 20 minutes later and needed a place to crash so I meet him near the hospital then we went to get some smokes at the A plus nothing like a walk in freezing weather at 330 in the morn. Got home and passed out. Woke up then went to my class and took my test.
Now I am talking to kate and getting sources for my annotated bib fun stuff. Current Mood: crushed
|Monday, October 11th, 2004|
Are you sad that superman died? Current Mood: complacent
|Wednesday, October 6th, 2004|
|I hate ticketmaster
Ticket master home of filthy gits. Fuckers mess up the date for the Dead Milkmen presale, for there concert november 21st in Philly. like assholes then I have to buy tickets tomorrow not today like the presale was supposed to be. October 10, 2004 at 10:30 am not october fucking 7th assholes.
On to more news, School sucks Why the fuck is BC3 so fucking easy? Does any one else feel classes are easy there besides Anatomy and physiology because no one likes that shit. I like all my classes though which is strange normally there is one that pisses me off and I just want to sleep for that class.
Does anyone watch the presidential debates? I Was thinking of doing so then I turned on Cnn last night before hand and they had color commentators on talking about the election like it was a fucking football match. I hate to be the one to tell CNN that football and politics are completely different and that we don't need no fucko newscaster commentating on and on like Jon Kerry is going to score a fucking touch down.
Hockey needs to start now, Which brings me to my next point fuck rich athletes even hockey players who feel that the 3.5 million dollars a year they get for playing a sport for 3 months is not enough fucking money. Then on top of that Comedians and other stars acting like they are middle class workers. Now i like Bill Maher and think he is a gifted comedian but your not middle class Same with you Bruce Springstein your middle class background makes you as much of a middle class man as George Bush.
On a final note I picked up two cds The New Flogging Molly cd and the new Shadows Fall cd.
Both are decent cds but Shadows Fall are starting to sound more and more radio friendly so maybe everyone will have a new metallica soon and Flogging Molly can just stay as they are good and irish. Current Mood: contemplative
|Sunday, September 5th, 2004|
Not a lot going on just college and a shit load of homework. My older brother is getting engaged soon that makes me feel old. So that means next December I will be a brother in law, what a strange feeling in a way, even though nothing changes. College is fine, and there are a lot of attractive girls and my courses are fun so that is a good thing. Other then that I went to the zoo today and tomorrow I am going to the outlet malls to look for some birthday presents. Current Mood: tired
|Tuesday, August 24th, 2004|
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Salutations and greetings everyone,
or all two of you who read this. Long time no update oh fucking well. I was in hawaii a couple weeks ago for 2 weeks. Then I had to have a colonoscopy last night which was a fucking riot of a time. IF anyone ever has to take one make sure the gallon of shit they give you is flavored or your in for a rough night. Well its rough anyways because it makes your intestines feel like its a damn about to be flooded over. Hawaii was a great time it was nice to see my father for 2 weeks and get to hang out with hi and my brother everyday in a beautiful place. Wow and if anyone has a thing for asians hawaii has the highest amount of eye candy next to there native lands. Tomorrow another fun semester starts at Bc3 i am taking 5 classes which ends up making it 15 credits. English 2, sociology, child psychology, health science, and a gym class were I have to walk around in it. Such a rough gym class oh boy. I'm gonna get going though and sew some crap together that needs sewn. Current Mood: giddy
|Wednesday, July 14th, 2004|
Sometimes I just want to kick someone in the fucking stomach.
|Sunday, July 11th, 2004|
Friday night hung out with Jason we went to the island and drank since he had freedom from his wife until 7pm. We had 3 beers there and left no cool people to talk to it is definitely different when you go there at night compared to at supper time. All the fatties are on parade at 530.
After that we got a 6 pack of micro brews from The big G. It was fun we were on a war for the better beer and I kicked some ass. 5 out of 6 of my beers were rated higher try better next time.
Then we proceeded to get shit faced until his wife got home with her friend then we ate and watched Bum Hunter the movie(which has to be the most fucked up movie ever) and played some Warlords on the comp through his network.
Saturday I woke up early and bullshitted with my mom and my little brother about when Ben And I are going to Hawaii To visit our father. Then my cousin Nate came and picked me up and we headed to our camp to get our crunk on hardcore. Which makes me think how much I hate stupid ass inbred hicks .
Those fuckers and their racist remarks can really bring people down. Or their whole idiotic statements. For those of you who don't know I have my nipples pierced. So the rednecks saw my piercings and were amazed like they were seeing a bar of soap for the first fucking time. Inept social outcasts fucking hicks. Now one may ask how they saw my piercings seeing how they normally are behind a shirt i took it off while i was mowing the lawn and the hicks always got to be in everything up there like it is a fucking barnyard social. So thats how they came up with shit like your not going down the hill, which is apparently a meaning for going gay. Anyone who ever been up to my camp will and can surely remember my stupid hick neighbors there. After they left it was good i Drank and smoked some pot and bullshitted with my cousins and his friends.
i will post more later Current Mood: Fistful OF Rage
|Thursday, July 8th, 2004|
I was in the ER monday night becuase my stomach felt like it was going to be ripped to shreds due to my stomach lining thinning. So the Dr told me not to drink but what is an irish man without his alcohol?
My dad left on tuesday for Hawaii for the next couple of months.
Then on wednesday I went out to the Island Bar downtown and meet up with all my friends despite what the doctor told me to do. It was a good time for all Drank some Arrogant Bastard Ale and some Victory hop Devil and got drunk.
Today I am fearing my head ache it is massive but now it is subsiding and treating me alright.
Well I am going to go cook some dinner have a good day
|Tuesday, July 6th, 2004|
Tomorrow when I wake up I'm finding my brother and making him take me back down to the water. That lake where we sailed and laughed with our father. I will not desert him. I will not desert him. No matter how I may wish for a coffin so clean or these trees to undress all their leaves onto me. I put my face in the dirt and then finally I see the sky that has been avoiding me. \
I started this letter I'm going to send it to Ruba. It will be blessed by her eyes on the gulf coast of Florida. With her feet in the sand and one hand on her swimsuit, she will recite the prayer of my pen.
Saying, ..time take us forward. Relief from this longing, they can land that plane on my heart I don't care just give me November, the warmth of a whisper in the freezing darkness of my room. But no matter what I would do in an attempt to replace. All the pills that I take trying tobalance my brain. I have seen the curious girl with that look on her face. So surprised she stares
out form her display case. Current Mood: crappy
|Sunday, July 4th, 2004|
You would say anything
You would try anything
To escape your meaningless
And your insignificance
And we are unloveable
And I don’t want you to think that I care
I never would
I never could
Why can’t you just love her?
Why be such a monster?
You bully from a distance
Your brain needs some assistance
But I’ll still take all the blame
'Cause you and me are both one and the same
And it's driving me mad
And it's driving me mad
I’ll take back all the things that I said
I didn't realise I was always talking to the living dead
And I don’t want you to think that I care
I never would
I never could
You would say anything
You would try anything
To escape your meaningless
And your insignificance
|yo long time no typie
Ok so someone told me that I should update more. I know that it should be done but, everything is weird now since my dad is leaving the 6th of this month to go to Hawaii for 4 - 6 months for his job at the goverment. I know it will mean a holiday to Hawaii again but it doesn't really excite me. it Just leaves me with a blagh feeling.
I went to the pirates game today they won 5-3 increasing there winning streak to 8 in a row which is the first time they did this since 2000. Also in good news about the buckos we got three excellent pirates now Craig wilson, Jack Wilson and Jason Bay. In my opinion and probably many others Bay could win rookie of the year and that could boost the pirates moral also Craig Wilson is a hitting machine and Jack Wilson is a truely amazing short stop.
I had a gathering at my house last weekend it was fun five or so of my friends showed up and five or so of my little brothers friends showed up we hooked up 3 xboxs and had a crazy halo mutliplayer lan party. It was a good time thanks all who showed up.
about 3 weeks ago i was in Nags Head, NC on my family vacation i cuaght a small as hell shark ate some seafood sat on the beach and got drunk and sat on the peir and fished and had a good time with my brother and all of my cousins and aunts. The only negative thing was my cousin Nathan not being there. So we couldnt converse till sunrise on the beach about all this crazy shit. also My cousin justin was there and that sucked cuase he is a big ass alcoholic and is also retarded becuase of alcohol.
Right now I am listening to some Ash becuase it's some English band that is good and english shit is cool.
Also to the person who told me to type on here you should make a lil time on monday to say hi and by to my dad becuase you think he is so damn rad.(Ok that might be an excuse also for us to hang out for a lil.) but it is a good one.
Ok im gonna drink my hard cider then pass out goodnight Current Mood: complacent
|Tuesday, May 25th, 2004|
|(how i feel right now) Trail of the dead Mistakes and regrets
If I could make a list
Of my mistakes and regrets
I'd put your name on top
And every line after it
Because every inch of hope
Becomes a world of shame
I've had to walk through
Each and every day
And if I screamed "you were wrong"
At the top of my lungs
It would never return
All the faith that I've lost
Because there is nothing left to say
That has not been said
If I shouted, you wouldn't listen
I dought it'd even sink in
If you forget how to feel
Reach inside your chest
Is there a heart beating?
Is there just emptiness?